My Tragic Flaw (One of the Many)
Let the record show (to anyone who read my previous post) that when Kyle and I started discussing ex-girlfriends, it was totally and completely my own doing. I brought it up, and when Kyle tried changing the subject (as any smart husband-to-be would do), it was I who re-directed the conversation back to his ex-girlfriends. My fault. I admit it.
This photo perfectly captures the look Kyle gets when I do silly things like ask, "Did you ever take long walks with any of your other girlfriends at such-and-such-same-place-we-used-to-go?"
I don't know why I do things like that. It's sick, the way I live my life. The "green monster of jealousy" is something I never thought I would have need to fear. And yet here I am, becoming the kind of girl who morbidly likes to ask about ex-girlfriends, only to sulk around all night in feelings bordering on insecurity. It's ridiculous, plain and simple. I know in the end, I'll have the last laugh because I got the guy... I know I should feel confidant that, if I ever meet any of these ex-girlfriends, Kyle would be proud to introduce me as his wife... And I know I should fight this petty woman I sometimes see in myself...
But as far as I can see, I am a long way off from being perfect.
[And if I ever do chance to meet one of Kyle's ex-girlfriends, I doubt I will walk away with fond memories. But it will make a good post for my blog!]
posted by Camille @ 4:49 AM
2 Comments:
Hi Camille! Oh, how I love the personality of your blog! Everybody's is so different and it is so fun to learn more about you and your future husband... I especially love the picture of him and the oreos:) I will continue to post on my blog too so we can be friends and get to know one another (especially when my baby is born!)
Solid post! You gotta love the drama! Well...maybe you don't love the drama, but I do! It's like an episode of the O.C. starring my own friends.
But I promise you the jealousy goes both ways. It's part of the game I guess. I like to think I'm above that, but I think we all have gotten heated over a bf/gf's ex. I think guys are just a little better at acting tough and not wearing it on their sleeve. That's my experience...
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